Today was alright, I guess. A couple relatives came to visit with my Mom and helped, brought food, etc. That is always appreciated. So emotionally, it was good to see family and get hugs (and a pillowcase!) and chat and thank them for helping out. Other than that though, I have not been feeling great today. Of course, my analytical brain always wants a reason for when I feel different so I search for something that may have triggered me feeling a little worse, like overdoing something, pushing myself too far, stuff like that. I have begun to wonder if analyzing and looking for a reason is healthy, or if, like the nature of endometriosis, I am looking for causes where the causes are all unknown.
This post is a bit of a continuation of yesterday's post, in case you haven't read that yet. I know before that I mentioned a whether or not a medication is "holding" for me. I don't know if I've ever explained that...
When I say a medication is "holding," that means that it lasts as long as it is supposed to and is doing what it should do at its peak level. So for instance, when I use a valium suppository at night, if it "holds," that means I wake up with little-to-no pain in the morning. That makes it much easier for me to get "ahead" of the pain, keep it under control, and need fewer pain medications throughout the day. This past week, I felt like the valium was no longer holding because when I woke up, I felt pain immediately. That means I need to take my pain meds in bed and stay lying down until the pain goes away or I'm going to be dealing with pain all day.
