I try to stay positive and think about my goals and about what I can control but sometimes when I think about the setbacks I've had that I have had no control over, it can be overwhelming. I feel like a big cloud of bad luck has been just hovering over me for a few years. I never thought about luck before getting sick. I used to think that a setback would only serve to make me a stronger person in the long run... but when you pile a bunch of them on without giving a bit of relief or showing me SOMETHING good that has come from them, it gets to just be too much. So please don't respond with cute little quotes like "A setback is just a set-up for a comeback." Or "Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger." Just... no.
Since my first surgery, aside from all the daily endometriosis stuff and procedures or things associated with that... my grandmother had a stroke... my aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer... I had a kidney stone that led to a bladder infection and UTI... a family friend committed suicide... I got a random infection in my toe... my aunt passed away... and today we found out that my mother has cancer. (And no, the irony of my previous post actually talking about cancer does not escape me).
