Doctor's Visit - December 2014 (or Endometriosis: Episode 4, A New Hope)

(Love this sentiment, but have been wondering if this is true lately)

I will end up talking about this with many people in my life, but this also feels totally appropriate for my blog.  I had a visit with my Ob/Gyn doctor (Dr. K) yesterday and made a decision that could lead to some difficult but ultimately positive changes.  Most importantly, I decided I'm ready to try Lupron, the drug that I had resisted trying for so long because of the side effects.  I've written about it before on this blog (so you could search for those posts) but in simple terms: it causes your body to go into menopause.

Overwhelmed

People have asked me recently how I'm holding up (my mom recently had cancer surgery if you didn't know) and I keep coming back to one word: OVERWHELMED.  I am overwhelmed by everything.  I feel like if I were a cup, full with all the crap going on dealing with endometriosis and the death of a family member and other various crappy things, I would be brimming over.  I literally feel so miserable at times that I don't want to be around people because I might infect them.  (Didn't Meredith say something similar on Grey's Anatomy?  Hmm...)

In a little while I'm going to the doctor for my appointment.  Normally I don't feel much of anything about this since I'm pretty used to it and all but today for some reason I am feeling overly anxious.  Maybe it's not the doctor at all and just me, I don't know.