I know that I have not posted much (or at all) lately. Sometimes when things are bad physically and emotionally, I just can't bring myself to do anything other than get through one day at a time. My mother had a bad reaction to her chemo drugs and it was scary for a while. I was the one with her primarily and trying to keep my emotions in check, keep my pain in check, and do what I could for her was everything I was able to do. So the blog was not something I was thinking about. I felt bad emotionally throughout chemo and wanting to be able to do everything I used to do so that I could help my mom through. I can say I wasn't able to do what I used to do but I did do the very most I was capable of doing. Emotionally, I think that seeing anyone you love go through that treatment is jut going to be extremely difficult. I also thought about how hard it must have been for my mom when I was in SOO much pain before surgery and there was nothing she could do to help. I get that it must have been frustrating and saddening. I feel pain now but it's a different level. I am taking fewer medications for pain, so no matter how bad I think I feel on a given day, it is not as bad as it was pre-surgery or else I would still be needing the three other prescriptions to deal with pain. Mom has started her radiation now though and the difference in her is remarkable! She is not even recognizable as the same person who had to be hospitalized a month or so ago. And already her hair is beginning to grow back. Yay!!
