Post-Chemo

(the hospital where I spent my day)

(Remember, looking at everything through endometriosis-colored glasses)

I survived my mom's second chemo treatment.  I feel significantly more tired, physically and emotionally drained tonight.  The tired part I would guess has to do with not being able to sleep the night before the chemo (happened to me last time too) and I know I am physically drained just because it was sitting in not the most comfortable chairs for over six hours.  Sitting for long periods of time still doesn't make my body feel good and by the end of the day my back was just in spasms.  No part is looking forward to having to go back to the hospital again, wait around again, so my mom can get a shot to help with her white blood cell production.  That sounds selfish, I'm aware.  I want to help, I want Mom to do everything she can do to be well, but I am just tired and I want to sleep until Friday and avoid hospitals until the next treatment.  I'm also nervous that I will not feel good tomorrow and will have to worry about pain meds and driving Mom, who shouldn't take herself, and then possibly a long wait for the shot, simply because waiting seems to be the norm in hospitals.  Or at least this one.  So I'm hoping I can sleep tonight and tomorrow goes smoothly.  Even driving not far again tomorrow seems impossible in my head right now but I could also wake up and be more rested and not feel too bad.  So I will see what happens and fingers are crossed.

Mom did very well, I think for the most part this one was better for her.  The nurse was actually able to properly insert the IV (which you would think all nurses would be able to do since it's a huge part of their job, but I have found that that is not the case.  Emotionally, I'm just drained.  I don't really have much to say but figured I'd update.  So far, she is not as tired as the last treatment and less dizzy but it's only been maybe seven hours, so I'm not sure that's really a good indicator.  Tomorrow will probably let us both see how we feel.  I REALLY wish my body was back to normal for all of these days.  And I wish I could find some really healthy fast food for when we're both exhausted, but hasn't happened yet.