Shaking It Off

I have had a song bouncing around in my head since I heard it, so I thought I'd share.  Taylor Swift's new song, Shake It Off, is not a bad one for that.  It's a positive and fun song and it encourages you to "shake off" the negative things people say or think that are just around.  I can get behind that right now.  Sometimes I need to "shake off" my own thoughts and just enjoy a fun song.  This one has a message that I relate to, so I am sharing.  I am down with shaking off all the pain and stress and tension that has felt like an endless cloud above my head.  (Plus, the music video totally amuses me).

Where I've Been

I know some people are wondering why I haven't been writing more since my mother has been feeling better and things are starting to calm down.  It is simple.  In order to get me feeling better (I was feeling BAD by June/July), my doctor added a prescription that I had taken prior to my surgery.  It has helped my body "calm down" but I have always hated taken it because I feel constantly drowsy and I also feel like it slows down my cognition when taken during the day time.  It has only been very recently that I haven't felt like I need to continue taking it during the day.  Hopefully I can now begin to wean off of this medication and slowly get my energy back.  BUT... (and this is a big but!) I am feeling pretty grateful to be able to worry about my energy level again finally and not feeling the amount of pain I had been constantly feeling.  Honestly, I just have been feeling bad since January and trying to "get by" rather than improve and live and smile.  At one point I realized it had been a long time since I last smiled and that's pretty depressing.  It is a little thing, but I am SO looking forward to going to the gym with much more consistency this month (my one goal for the next month) because I feel great when that is something I can do!  There have been a lot of negative things going on and now the absence of negative things feels pretty positive!  I will take what I can get.  

Buzzfeed Article: 17 Things Women With Endometriosis Are Tired of Explaining

My friend, C, sent me a link to this article.  The longer I think about it, the more I love it.  A popular site, BuzzFeed, published this, which I love!  Also, it is a really simple list but it hits home incredibly well.  I related to every item on this list and by the end I was wanting to yell "Yes!" out loud.  So if you have endometriosis, I think you will love this list and if you don't have endometriosis, it is something to think about.  Not all of these questions are bad because some of them are quite caring really.  It's just the repetitive nature of answering them that I relate to quite well.  
*I DID NOT WRITE THE FOLLOWING:

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Hope

I know that I have not posted much (or at all) lately.  Sometimes when things are bad physically and emotionally, I just can't bring myself to do anything other than get through one day at a time.  My mother had a bad reaction to her chemo drugs and it was scary for a while.  I was the one with her primarily and trying to keep my emotions in check, keep my pain in check, and do what I could for her was everything I was able to do.  So the blog was not something I was thinking about.  I felt bad emotionally throughout chemo and wanting to be able to do everything I used to do so that I could help my mom through.  I can say I wasn't able to do what I used to do but I did do the very most I was capable of doing.  Emotionally, I think that seeing anyone you love go through that treatment is jut going to be extremely difficult.  I also thought about how hard it must have been for my mom when I was in SOO much pain before surgery and there was nothing she could do to help.  I get that it must have been frustrating and saddening.  I feel pain now but it's a different level.  I am taking fewer medications for pain, so no matter how bad I think I feel on a given day, it is not as bad as it was pre-surgery or else I would still be needing the three other prescriptions to deal with pain.  Mom has started her radiation now though and the difference in her is remarkable!  She is not even recognizable as the same person who had to be hospitalized a month or so ago.  And already her hair is beginning to grow back.  Yay!!